'When Sh*t Hits The Fan'
Some people have technical difficulties in Life, right? I have hiccups, and they are the 'I can't breath' hiccups, which is pretty bad in my opinion. It's hard for me to show my vulnerability, but I want to get this out of my system. I know they say, 'whatever happens, happens for a reason', but it's hard. It gets you down, it rubs your face against a rocky road, it keeps you there, it let's you heal and then, it squirts lemon on those wounds. Sure It's an antiseptic and it's healing the wound, but it's also stinging beyond your tolerance. I know I am exaggerating, but what else do you expect when you are hurting?
Every time I try to get up, brush off, and start a fresh, something gets me down again. I thought I had everything figured out, but nope, I don't. There is no reason why I shouldn't just say, "Okay fine I didn't make it, so what? We all make mistakes!" and get over it. There is no point, wallowing in these hurtful feelings. It's not the end of the world, and it's not the end of me (not yet!). So keep throwing lemons at me and I will make a lemon tart. (Though I will need flour, sugar, butter and eggs too, Please & Thank you!)
I know I can get through this (not that I have any other option), but still I am trying to get myself back in the game. All I need is some support, emotionally (yes, I am weak and I have my moments), but I need some love and support from family and friends. So I can overcome this. At times I can be very upset about things, all I need is some reassurance. Not a sign of weakness, I take it as a sign of being human. A human, who is allowed to feel all the emotions.
PS: I was literally, rolling my eyes at myself, while typing this post. I hope no one finds this, but it really needed to get out of my system and especially out of my drafts. It's childish and I am not usually this low, but we all have our moments. And in words of TDL (The Daily Love), when sh*t hits the fan let it be, remain calm. I am going to do just that. (Also, has Mastin been writing for me these days? Because it sure feels like it.)
PPS: Whatever happened to 2012 being a good happy year? I was the happiest bunny on the last day of 2011, come 2012 and so far, it's been going down hill. I need some inclination options in real life!
Love & Peace